Confronting emotions.

This is something that requires a lot of effort to do. I mostly avoid confronting my emotions. When I’m sad, I don’t want to be told that I’m sad. I just want to be as I’m.

I avoid coming face to face with my true emotions. Because according to me if I avoid these emotions then I don’t have to deal with these emotions. This avoiding confrontation has come to new level when I borrowed a book from my friend on emotional intelligence (who himself had not read it) in order to be able to face my emotions and deal with them effectively. I borrowed a total of 3 books and I’m presently reading the 2nd book while having read one already. But guess what, I’vent read the one on emotional intelligence yet and am planning not to read it at all.

When I think about it, I obviously want better emotional intelligence but that would require me to read that book which would want me to confront my emotions, something I am really scared to do.

I unfollow all insta profiles which post emotional quotes and all that stuff because in my view emotions fuck you up totally. Emotions fade your rational thinking ability.

I am really bad at emotional intelligence. My EQ is lower than most and I totally acknowledge it. I am emotionally vulnerable and won’t confront any shitty emotions.

I think this needed to be talked about in the public domain. Many of us are emotionally vulnerable. Many of us don’t want to deal with it. This one is for you, you are not alone.

-ChoubeySahab